Friday, March 23, 2012

End of Our Rope

Tonight I have to admit I feel I am, for the first time in many, many years, truly at the end of my rope. I am tired of asking for prayers. I am tired of praying. I am tired.

My nephew's unemployment claim was denied in a letter we got today. The employer lied blatantly. We will, of course, appeal it. However, it will take several weeks for them to set up an arbitration meeting. And, it is going to very hard to counter the employer's claims for the reason of dismissal.

Meanwhile, my mind is frozen in fear. I keep feeling as though I've done something to anger God. Or that I've missed seeing something he placed on our path as a solution. Several dear, dear friends have helped but there is limit to their ability to help.

I have not the heart to go into any details about the constant pressure of the most necessary of bills. I have not the heart, at least tonight, to even care.

Father, have you abandoned us?

1 comment:

Crochet Renee' said...

Evelyn, God never breaks his promises. Remember that he said he would never leave or forsake you. Sometimes when we want God to say "yes" or "no" when we are impatient, we don't hear him saying, "wait". I feel what you are going through (even without knowing the details), as I have gone through a lot of changes and challenges over the last year and a half. God has been saying, "wait" to me for awhile now. Remember that He moves in his time, not ours. Praying that He will make Himself evident to you, so that you will find comfort in His arms.