They say the road to Hell is paved with good intentions. Whether or not you believe in Hell, I happen to believe that good intentions are not quite enough to secure my eternal happiness. I’ve got to work on demonstrating those intentions, on practicing what I promise God I will do.
I’ve written over 200 posts since I began this Blog. Each night that I post, I open my heart to God. In those posts, I examine my day’s thoughts and actions. I explore why I did certain things and what I believe I must do to either correct them or to continue to do them right. I end each post with a private prayer for additional help or a note of thanks.
At the time I write them, my heart and soul is full of good intentions. Sometimes, by the time morning comes, not a long stretch of time, just a few hours, the memory of what I’ve posted is already gone from my conscious memory. How am I to ever put my intentions into practice at that rate?
I’ve decided to browse my own posts, re-discovering my hopes and dreams, re-discovering my hopes for the child of God I hope to become. I hope to find one a week that I can concentrate on. Maybe if I make one of my past intentions my “weekly promise to God,” I can improve my practice and stop my unfruitful promises. Focusing on the same trait or fault or virtue-to-be, every day for a week, might help drum it into my stupid human skull. It certainly can’t hurt. I’ll probably have to copy and paste it and “file” it where it is easy to read each day. At least I can try.
Father, I know you understand my human failings and empty promises, but I pray that you will help me to start changing my ways for real, to help me fulfill what you have in mind for my life.
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