Darkest before Dawn

I have nothing much to post tonight except that if it is true that it is darkest before dawn, then dawn should be very close. We are trying to hold onto some hope here in the household, but it is getting very scary. We could have the car repossessed later this month, and I pray the phone is not the first utility to go because that means the internet, too.

We were just sent a bill for $98 from Frank's meds coverage from the job who terminated him end of April. The pharmacy assured us that if the insurance was processing through the computer, then the coverage must still be okay. The bill we just got was for his meds that they are now disallowing because the insurance expired. There is more but there's no point in making myself re-live each item.

Still, it could be much worse. I know some folks in my senior mobile home community much worse off than we are. One couple, for example: she has a severe heart condition and they will not do yet another surgery until she is at death's door. Meanwhile, her beloved husband is undergoing radiation treatments for prostrate cancer.

I know of at least three different neighbors who are on "hold" with terminal cancer.

Yet another is facing the possibility of losing one of her feet due to diabetic complications.

And those are just the medical issues that trouble some of them.

One neighbor went the entire winter without heat because he felt he couldn't afford his gas bill. Thank heaven we have reasonably mild winters.

Lord Jesus, I come to you tonight for support and strength. Help me to remember how dreadfully you suffered on Good Friday, and even before in the Garden, worrying about all of us and knowing that no matter what you did for us, we would still do whatever we pleased. Yet, three days later you awoke to a glorious dawn. I ask only for the grace we need to deal with this with dignity and to see and hear what the Father has in mind for us.