Monday, June 14, 2010

Waiting for the Other Shoe to Drop

Sometimes I get really nervous when I see that God is answering some prayer or another. It makes me especially nervous when it is a slow and easy transition to what I had been praying for.

Peace at home is a big need for me. Arguments are plentiful when money problems are in a household. That can mean for people related by blood, or marriage, or even just roommates. It doesn't matter. Money problems are always great stressors.

The past week, I have been seeing some changes in attitude in the household. Some of it is on my side; some on the other household member's side. The 13-yr-old kitty doesn't count here because he gets whatever he wants, no matter whether we are worried or not. If there is anything to reincarnation, I want to come back as a cat in a household that loves cats.

Back to reality. Little by little, we are finally talking "to" each other, not "at" each other. The thing that worries me is worrying about whether this is the Lord's work or just a lull in the normal way things are around here. I guess I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Still, I love the feeling that is slowly developing. It is a feeling of each of us wanting peace. It is a feeling of peaceful beginnings. It is no way perfect, of course. But it is a good feeling.

Thank you, Lord, for helping us to help each other. Thank you for not minding that I have nagged you for a long while about this. And, even if it does not last, thank you for the beginnings of soulful rest. I will promise to do my best as long as I can.

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