Slower Pace?

Since things do not seem to be slowing down for me, I’ve got to accept that I’m going to be multi-tasking a lot for a while. Usually, I’m begging God for a few minutes to myself, or for enough minutes for a half-hour nap, or to just put my legs up for a few moments. In other words, I’m still not doing it on his terms, but on mine, whimpering for rest. I’ll have to change the way I’m praying, I suspect.

I’m grateful and humbled to think he feels I can handle all of this. He does know better than I do, as far as my limits. I have to be honest and admit I do not like all of this. But if I am expected to do it, if I am the only one he has in a certain place at a certain time to perform a certain task, then I need to do it with more dignity and less whining that I am doing now.

I will have to pray for the peace of heart to be honored he trusts me. I will pray for dignity in performing these tasks. And I will pray for the ability to do these things without becoming frantic, without dropping things, without being clumsy and out of breath because I’m running from one thing to another.

Who says I have to “run”? Not God, I’m sure. If he trusts me, then he will give me the timing I need without my forcing my own idea of what that timing should be. If he expects me to do something, he will give me enough time and strength to do it right for him, for whoever he needs me to cover. Do I need to go at a slower pace? Perhaps it is not a slower pace I should seek, but a more spirit-guided pace, all in his good time.

Father, I am humbled that you entrust certain tasks to my care; help me, please, to perform them in the sense of your time-frame, not in mine.