Entangled in Fear

Although many of my financial problems are easing, very slowly, there are still a few bumpy spots to cross. Two of those must be faced Monday morning. Two calls - I fear the reaction of both. I can pay both, but they want it tomorrow, sooner than I can get it into their hands because of distance, vehicle availability, care giving obligations, and other factors. Because I have the funds, I pray that I can convince them of my honesty and sincerity.

I cannot blame them for not believing me. So many people these days fib or fudge or outright lie about their situation and this makes any creditor skeptical about the rest of us. I have to leave this in God’s hands. He has made sure I have the funds, so I must trust him to bless these representatives with trust in me.

Faith sounds easy but practicing it is hard at times. Fears and doubts touch not only financial issues for we humans, but also relationships, survival needs, safety, and more.

Meanwhile, I find that my fear lasts a much shorter time these days. I am learning to trust him more. Slowly, but steadily, I am making progress in this area. Prayer helps a great deal. The more I talk with him about my fears, the easier it is to shed the fear. The more I talk with him about faith, the closer I feel to him. As with any relationship, communication seems to be the key.

Dear Lord, please continue to bless me with faith to trust my needs to your care; thank you for always being there to hear about my needs and my fears, and for your comforting presence.