Wisdom, Courage, Guidance

I seem to be stalling on my intention to downsize my voluntary obligations. I’ve been going over and over this issue the past few days. Much of my uncertainty has been posted in the last few blogs. I can do nothing about my regular obligations, but I thought I was ready to move forward by un-volunteering on some other commitments. So, this can mean one of two things.

First, it can mean that I am weak about getting out of something I know someone else can do better. Maybe I am afraid that they will think I am terrible for quitting. Maybe I am afraid that I will think that, not them. I reasoned it all out, I thought, and it seemed to make sense.

Or, it can mean that God still needs me to do this for them. Maybe he’s putting some roadblocks in my way (my indecision, for one) to keep me from doing something he’d rather I didn’t do.

So, what do I do now? I know the answer to that one, at least. I need to pray about this. I need to ask for a few things. I need wisdom to know which way to go. I can pray for that before I go to sleep tonight. Many times, he seems to whisper in my ear while I am sleeping and the answer is there in the morning. I also need courage to do whatever that answer requires. And, some of what I would have to do, should I stay with my commitment, requires a new skill or the updating of an old one. In that case, I also need his guidance.

Heavenly Father, please help me with this problem. Please send me wisdom to know what to do, courage to do what you wish, and guidance, no matter which way this goes.