Lack of Enthusiasm

I need to pray a little more often for the times when I just can’t seem to get motivated to do what I know I ought to be doing. I tell myself it’s just a lack of enthusiasm. But enthusiasm shouldn’t be necessary for me to do what needs to be done. Maybe I do not need to pray for enthusiasm, but for fortitude, determination, staying power. That’s really what I need.

Oh, I have no problem with the cut-and-dried, obvious routine daily tasks that are on my plate. My problem is with the borderline tasks. Little things (or big things) that I’ve promised to do, or things that I know would make life easier if I just found a way and the time to do them.

When I began this blog, for example, I wrote faithfully, every night, for months. Suddenly, I've let several days go by without a post, telling myself that it's not urgent. But it is something I've promised myself and my Maker. It is something I enjoy after I've finished; I feel good, and that's important.

I’ve also spent a lot of time and a lot of love in self-publishing my Busy Person’s Prayer Book (see link on this page), and it was difficult to not only write it, but format it, in between my caregiving and other tasks. Well, the book is published now. What I need to do now is get busy and publicize it. I don’t have funds, so I need to be creative. But a nagging fear keeps me from going any further than I have already gone. I know God does not expect me to sit back and wait for Him to do all the work on this. We’re partners in this series of prayer books, He and I.

So, it’s time for me to stop making excuses about why I don’t have the time. It doesn’t take that much time to check a few free publicity sites when I’m checking emails. It doesn’t take a lot of effort to revise the old press release I began a year ago and send it off. This, and my blog, and other things, like de-cluttering my home, aren't high priority but they need to be done.

Dear God, there are things that need to be done and I am whining and making excuses because they are not high priority; please help me to get moving on anything you need me to do!