Praying for Total Trust

I have had some friends in the past, and I still have one or two now, who have total trust in God. I believe, I have faith, but I often plunge full speed ahead without waiting for his help or his solution to my problems. I hate to admit this, but I guess I don’t have total trust.

It’s not that I don’t believe or trust at all. I do. Maybe I’m just too impatient. Maybe I want my answers now, or when I want them - not when they are right for me.

I’ve prayed now and then for complete faith. When I was a little girl, I had that kind of faith. I have a strong faith now or I wouldn’t be writing these blog entries each night. But it’s not that complete faith that some are blessed with. What impresses me about these people is the feeling of peace that radiates from them. In the midst of their troubles, they are calm and serene.

I would love that state of mind. When I am troubled, I often freeze and cannot go forward. I get stuck in a rut of worry and frustration. It is wasteful. This state of mind wastes my energy and wastes my time. When I realize that, sometimes I can shake the feeling off of me and move on. I would like to do that far more often than I do.

Please, Heavenly Father, bless me with that trust in your love for me, the trust that will fill me with your peace.