How Many Times Will He Forgive Me?

I am all too human, I fear. Tonight I realized there were a few things I had put off and now it is too late to take care of them. I will survive the problems this creates. However, I know that this also means I need to pray and ask for even more help from the Lord. I also have to admit I procrastinated, yet again.

You have no idea how many times I have done this. At 71, I am no longer working outside the house. But for over 50 years, I did work on many jobs. In those years, I had no trouble with organization. I had no trouble remembering to handle my to-do lists. I had no trouble doing those tasks on the lists.

So, what is wrong with me now? Part of it, I'm sure, is that I no longer have that paycheck-motivation that paid employment offers. Part of it is my age. We cram things into our heads, year after year. At my age, my mind is chock full of stuff. Some of it is bound to be delayed when I try to retrieve it. Part of it is that my life is a bit erratic right now and other issues distract me.

Back to the problem. I am embarrassed to yet again ask for his forgiveness for my putting things aside until it is too late. Still, I take comfort in the verse where Jesus explains how often we should forgive others...
Luke 17:4 "Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”

The way I see it, if Jesus tells us to forgive others this often, then we who are made in God's image should surely be able to trust that God himself will forgive us that often, in that way.

Father, thank you for your patience with me. Thank you for forgiving me over and over, and please fill me with all the grace and gifts I need to try again - and again.